I am Significantly Flawed

Who's the brainless moron that wrote the last (first) entry? I'm never going to figure this whole journey out. I think that's my problem. I am continually trying to figure it out, make sense of occurences, understand what's happening and how to make it go away or prevent it in the future and I think such thoughts are a waste of time and energy. But it's very hard to let go of that thought process. It's like I've got major mental issues and holding on to this way of thinking is very difficult to change.

But I am realizing more and more that I am significantly flawed. In fact, it's 3:03pm on Tuesday, the last week of the month, and I'm sitting here writing this lame entry when I should be actively engaged in prospecting, finding, working, doing, selling. But no, I'm a moron who doesn't know how to get a hold of his feelings and attitude and just get out there and do the job.

MY New Life

I have been driven into the wilderness. In fact, we (my wife and I) were sent here about 3 years ago but I believe I am starting to understand and accept this reality only now. I hope I am correct in my feelings about why and how to deal with this new reality. This is partly why I am recording my thoughts and feelings. Because although I know the journey ahead is still very much uphill, I think I may have a good idea of how to make the journey.